No ending

Life seems in full swing,
People around me laugh and chuckle,
like there is no end…
Bursting in laughter and full of energy
So vibrant and colourful it seems…
But here am I sitting all by myself-
Surrounded with people, yet confined…
Hiding in a shell, deep down inside
So alone I feel-
Why can’t I define?
The smell of rose,
Burning candles and dimming lights…
The carving on the wood and some old bricks
I feel it all…
I see it all…
Yet, why do I feel this is not where I belong?
eyes rolling about..
Take me out…
I don’t want to dig in…
I plead and cry…
From within I hear someone,
Wanting to reach high…
Then why is this feeling still inside?
Oh God! Can’t I just die?